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TRANSPARENCY

Emily Doll

My thick purple frames provide the necessary shield,
a distance, a buffer between me and the world.
My deep green eyes—the only part of me I like—
can safely hide and remain unnoticed.
Funny how a single accessory tells the world just enough,
not too little and never too much,
but projects exactly what I need others to know:
I’m buried in deadlines; searching for intellect;
too consumed by words to experience emotions;
fitting carefully, relieved, into nerdy stereotypes.
If they all think they know me, I don’t have to say a thing.
The unspoken assumption that I’ve no concern for appearance
protects me from ever hoping I’ll be seen as beautiful.
Lenses just a tad stronger than I need
allow me to pretend I can see the world clearly.
This one-way transparency comforts me,
provides me the chance to see all and reveal nothing.
And so I’m surprised, because when you’re around,
suddenly it’s OK
to take off my glasses.

 

Now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known.
1 Corinthians 13:12 (NRSV)

 

JOURNAL: Write about the ways you hide from other people. With whom do you feel comfortable enough to take off your glasses, to be yourself?

—from devozine (November/December 2011). Copyright © 2011 by The Upper Room®. All rights reserved.

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