The Playlist of My Life

Lindsay Williams

Scott Stapp left home when he was 17 years old and went on to become the lead singer of Creed, one of the most popular secular rock bands of the late 1990s. His high-profile celebrity status led to a lifestyle reeking of sex, drugs, and alcohol. Fame became a downward spiral of consequences, which led to anger, bitterness, and desperate loneliness that often forced Stapp over the edge, resulting in many suicide attempts.


Scott Stapp2 ph cr Jeremy Cowart


“I was opening a door and not knowing where it would lead, but it should’ve been death.

By the grace of God, I’m here today,” he admits. After repeatedly hitting rock bottom, Stapp realized he needed to ask for help. “I got to the point where I was literally moments away from losing everything—[including] my wife and kids—and I ended up broken, alone, in a rehab facility, sobbing, ‘God, how did I get here?’”



New Day

God answered his prayer; and Stapp encountered a loving God, who brought him out of his own personal hell. “I found God in places I thought God wasn’t supposed to go,” he reveals. “God’s around every corner, in the darkest places; and there’s no mess too great that God can’t turn it around and repurpose it into a message.”

Scott Stapp2 - Jeremy CowartWhen Stapp pledged his life to God, he left his post as frontman for Creed in search of a new identity in Christ. He began by practicing some simple disciplines: prayer, reading the Bible, and serving others. “I was getting up in the morning and praying, whether I felt like it or not, beginning to say and do things that were counterintuitive to how I was feeling, because they were the right things to do,” he says. “When you’re trying to do the next right thing, your confidence gets built on good things, on things of God.”

At first, Stapp believed that to follow Christ, he had to leave rock ‘n’ roll behind. However, doors kept opening, pointing him in the direction of music. He finally came to terms with the fact that he could love Jesus and play rock music. However, now he wanted to write songs from a place of transformation and sing in a way that would reflect the power of God at work in his life.


Proof of Life

Proof of Life Cover Art2Proof of Life, Stapp’s latest record, is a testament to allowing God to speak through our life story. He describes the album as the playlist of his own life. “This record is a reflection of all my experience and everything I’ve learned up until now,” he says, noting that the Christian life is unmistakably a process.

“I’m a recovering alcoholic and addict,” he says. “I know I’m sober today. I know I’ve been sober for this period of time, but I can’t promise anything in the future. I may slip. That’s human nature. I have to live in twenty-four hour periods.”

The songs on Proof of Life reveal the promises Stapp has found true—that God will never leave or forsake us. “There is never a time when God turns his back on us,” he emphasizes. “He’s always there with arms open saying, ‘Turn around, turn around.’”

Scott’s advice to those who find themselves walking similar roads? “Go on, because this mess that you think isn’t repairable and that the world has thrown away, those are the lives God wants,” he offers. “I serve a God who loves the rejects, who loves the misfits, who loves to dine, mingle, and associate with the ones even the church despised. That’s my God.”



The late Dick Clark said, “Music is the soundtrack of our lives.” What songs have defined specific moments in your life? Take some time to reflect on your life and your faith journey. Pull out your iPod and create a playlist of songs that have formed the soundtrack of your life. Hit “play.” Spend some time writing about each song—why it’s special, what it means to you, and how it shaped or expressed a particular season of your life.

Photos by Jeremy Cowart
Lindsay Williams , a former editor of CCM Magazine, is currently a freelance writer in Nashville, Tennessee. She loves writing about Christian music and blogs at

—from devozine (July/August 2014). Copyright © 2014 by The Upper Room®. All rights reserved.

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