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FORGIVE ME

Kay Williams

Dear Sister,

I have been wanting to apologize to you for years—now that I can see life from a different perspective. This world and the next are so much bigger than the microcosm in which we grew up. Now I realize that I was making our home a far worse place than it had to be.

I was envious of you. I am sorry I expressed that envy by mocking you. You strove so hard to be perfect, and in so many ways you really were. I envied that and wanted to destroy it.

I thought that your perfection would diminish our parents’ love for me. I didn’t realize that love doesn’t work that way; that our parents, though sparing with their love, gave me enough to be safe; and perhaps most important, that the extra love I required could easily have been found in you. The fact that we both felt neglected and could have taken consolation in each other brings me to tears whenever I think of how hard I worked to keep that from happening.

I am sorry. Please forgive me.

 

[David prayed,] “What I did was stupid and terribly wrong. Please forgive me.”
1 Chronicles 21:8 (CEV)

 

START FRESH: To whom do you need to apologize so that your relationship might heal and begin anew?

—from devozine (January/February 2020). Copyright © 2019 by The Upper Room®. All rights reserved.

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