Spiritual Practice


Cary Knier Johannes

Junior high was a time of keeping secrets. It was a time of change—in my friends, my school, my body, and my feelings. It was the time when my friends and I started to like boys. I didn’t want my parents to know all my feelings. They were secrets for friends only. Knowing that I was hiding things, Mom grew increasingly worried; and yet I kept more and more from her.

Just when I thought that nobody understood what I was going through, I discovered Psalm 139:1–4 (NRSV):
     O Lord, you have searched me and known me.
     You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
     you discern my thoughts from far away.
     You search out my path and my lying down,
     and are acquainted with all my ways.
     Even before a word is on my tongue,
     O Lord, you know it completely.

Wow! That passage blew my mind! God knows everything about me and understands me. I have no secrets from God.

Even now, as an adult, I read Psalm 139 whenever I have a secret or I feel as if no one understands. I remember that I can keep no secrets from God and that, despite how unworthy I may feel, God loves me anyway.

“Who can hide in secret places so that I cannot see them?” declares the Lord.
—Jeremiah 23:24a (NIV)


PRAY: Tell God the secrets you can’t tell anyone else.

—from devozine (September/October 2014). Copyright © 2014 by The Upper Room®. All rights reserved.

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